SO…. I THINK I have A.D.D. And anyone that knows me would probably laugh out loud and say DUH!!
But seriously, this is not something I really thought about getting diagnosed and treated for as an adult. So many doctors, websites and articles talk about your KIDS… get them diagnosed and start pumping them with Ritalin….
I hadn’t honestly considered it a REAL option for me until I talked to a friend of a friend at a party one night and she had been diagnosed and had taken medication for it. But in talking with her about her struggles, problems, frustrations with life I realized it was like I was looking into a mirror. It was scary and very comforting at the same time. When I talked about my own personal struggles she nodded at me again and again and again. It was a relief to FINALLY talk to someone who seemed to UNDERSTAND me!!!
After that I went out and bought a couple of books about adult A.D.D. What an eye-opener. I think it was chapter two that listed the top ten behavioral symptoms of people with A.D.D. Ummmmm yeah….. I had each and every single behavioral symptom to some degree or another. Several of which have been very frustrating for myself, my family and my relationships. I will get into that more in another post.
The repeatedly states how important it is to get diagnosed and try medication to help stabilize brain function. People with A.D.D. actually have SLOWER brain function. So we are addicted to stimulation…. stimulation makes us feel NORMAL. And we will seek it out wherever we can get it…. even by picking fights with our loved ones. Because ANY form of stimulation is better than NO stimulation. It’s not something that we do maliciously, it’s totally subconscious. And we honestly need stimulation to feel NORMAL. Without it, we can fall into deep depression and basically wither away.
So since I have read this book I have talked to a few other adults who are currently on medication (adderall) for A.D.D. and they have told me it’s LIFE-CHANGING. So I’m thinking I would really like to give it a try. But first I need to get diagnosed and referred so I can get counseling as well.
Some serious sh*t has gone down at work lately and I can’t really afford to take the time off to go to the doctor/therapist for the next couple of weeks. But it’s the slow season right now so I should be able to get in there soon and I will keep my blog up to date on my progress 
I’m looking forward to being able to COMPLETE things, without getting bored or distracted. I’m looking forward to not being sad and depressed with I have nothing to do. I am REALLY looking forward to not picking fights out of boredom!!
We’ll see where this road takes me
Ok so my brain is freaking out. I NEED stimulation right now. It’s been a while since I had a project to hyper focus on and provide me with stimulation. The last couple of weeks I’ve tried to “chill”. Watch movies, go to the mall, go shopping, get stuff done around the house.
